Context & Place & Site

    I sit crosslegged on the ground of my nest

I look around 

What do I see?

What do you see?

I see the past 

My past 

& 

Future

What about your present?

Does anyone notice that?

Do you? 

Unfortunately not

I see where I've feared

I've laughed 

I've panicked 

I've cried

I've seen where I've felt in love 

I've felt hope 

I've felt content 

I see my hair falling to the base in clumps

I see myself 

My self 

Myself progressing  

Myself at my worst

But did you know at the time that it was your worst?

No

I always hoped for things to get better

I'm scared of going backwards 

But now you can't relive your past

I know It's impossible but I cant help my mind 

I go back to staring out into the world through the branches of my walls 

My nose tingles with pain as I feel my eyes moist with tears

Going back to the place, what else do you see?

I

see

Lavender, stems high looking outwards with pride

Asking if I know Beyoncé

Says he doesn't 

Dad flees the nest

The rhythm of his steps 

The candle lit from her right shines and flickers 

The white clouds are still visible  

at 22:29

on Saturday 25th June 

Site & Place & Context

Wednesday 16th September 2015 was the day I decided to start a daily diary

I've always envied people who have been able to successfully record every day of their lives, through the use of paper and pen. I always thought..

'It must be nice to come across pieces of your past. The feeling of nostalgia and happiness as you place your eyes upon this treasured piece of paper. Valuable in only one way, it holds a piece of you.'

Seeing how you've developed through language and handwriting, comparing it to the person you are today. 

To me there is something magical about being able to relive memories. At the same time it is a curse. Personally, I can get caught up within stories from past times, I can worry about them so much to the extent that they come into my present and future lives. I guess it's a natural thing to do in this day. 

I am forever fascinated by our personal past events, I love hearing about other people's unique views on their life so far. It gives me reassurance and comfort.  

I feel like I'm constantly reflecting

Since coming back home from Glasgow I've been hut by past feelings of comfort and routine. Moving away has given me a new perspective on how I view home. I've learnt to appreciate what home has to offer, the peace and quiet, the sound of birds in the evening and the stillness of the night. I currently feel more inspired. It's as if my mind has returned to how it was last Summer, back in my normal habitat, like it was during my second year at college.

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 I am currently listening to Future Island's Long Flight (Undressed Version) on Spotify. This song reminds me of many things. It reminds me of the last months of college, it reminds me of last Summer, it reminds myself of Martin, it reminds me of having my first night out in Edinburgh in December alongside Martin and his flat, as this song was played at some point during the night.

Future Islands was introduced to me by Martin, the first song being 'Seasons'. The band also reminds me of my Dad, it reminds me of spending New Years Eve in Glasgow at Sloans with Elsie as we watched Jools Holland's Hootenanny, it reminds me of travelling on the bus to Edinburgh one Summers day last year (saying 'Summers Day' now reminds me of (500) Days of Summer).

EVERYTHING STEMS FROM SOMETHING

The band also reminds me of sad and happiness, it brings a different feeling into the air, a unique vibe. 

The amazing thing for me is that this is a completely different story for someone else.

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Within Site, Place and Context I would like to focus my attention on the attachments of memories and present moments. Comparing and combining the both to some conclusion maybe. For this I have to choose my own site, I have given this some thinking and I have come to the conclusion that I'm interested in home. By Friday 1st July I'll be moving into a new family home, in the thirteen days I've got left I would like to work within these walls that have carried me through my twenty years. 

I'll continue this through the move of different environments

It's Never Over Till

There you go

I've finally finished my first year of Sculpture & Environmental Art at Glasgow School of Art. 

Eight months of living and breathing in Glasgow done, of course until September. 

I'm going to share with you what I've learnt within. Through the short time of being in the big city I've discovered a lot about my abilities and downfalls. It's been a very rocky couple of past months but I'm eager to get on track once again. In the past couple of days I have began to gain a new perspective, a clear reflection of the year as a whole.

"Alice, so what exactly have you learnt then?"










"If we're going to heal, let it be glorious"

People say that your University years is the time where you find yourself, find your voice and calling. 

1.  Within this year I have fallen through the depths of my anxiety but the silver lining is, I know I'm able to stand up again. I am capable of more, more than my mind can predict 

2. I have realised how much I want to overcome, even better.. accept parts within myself, I want to 'just do'

"My torturer became my remedy"

3. Living and defending for yourself is hard, balance is what you need. You need to take care, at the same time you need to live, be full of life, be spontaneous and young 

4. Just because you've struggled doesn't mean your not doing well. Try and remember that 

5. Things change and evolve not matter what 

 "So we're going to heal, we're going to start again"

6. I now want to pursue mindfulness, practice the art of meditation and relaxation to achieve my full potential 

7. EMBRACE THINGS, YOU CAN TURN THINGS AROUND

8. You are here for a reason, no less than anyone else 

9. Create, the studio is there for a reason 

10.  Breathe


Since coming home I have started to appreciate to quiet, it's making me tune into myself, making me feel in control.



 Are we ever fully in control?























I feel ready, I feel more alive 
























I am 

























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